NO LUTFI?

aznal lutfi will not coming back for raya..=(
='(

SORRY='(

I'm sorry friend
I don't know what to do
I try so hard
to be a better person to you

I screw up a lot
and I ignore you too
I don't know why
but I still love you

your my best friend
I know we can make it through
lets make this friendship last
and make it better and true

I know your getting sick of me
I'm getting sick of myself too
I don't know how many times
I can say sorry to you

but really I am a fool
to let such a wonderful
friendship break in two

I'm going to push aside the past now
I'm going to be nicer to you
and show what I can do

your my best friend still
and your my favorite too
remember the good times and I
know we'll make it through.
SORRY='( by asny
I'm sorry

TALKING ABOUT AN AIRLINE PILOT

Recently,i've had a conversation with my guy about marrying an airline pilot...

to conclude, he said:

don't marry an airline pilot - unless:

• You have an incredible amount of patience
• A solid job that earns decent money
• Don't mind doing a lot of stuff by yourself
• Don't mind moving all over the world
• Are a dab hand with ebay/ freecycle/ putting up shelves one-handed/checking tyre pressures
• You have a great sense of humour
• You're a very trusting sort of person... AND
• You love him more than anyone else in the world.

And to be honest, if that's the case... You should be fine. Really. There are times when it will all drive you crazy, but I promise, it WILL be worth it. Honest.

And remember - marry the MAN, not the pilot. If you marry him just because he's a pilot, you'll be very disappointed!

MY COMMENT: i still love him because he's a pilot..=p

WHY DO I DO THE THINGS I DO

Well, I've been pondering things again....sitting on the porch...swinging...and thinking. I've been thinking about reaching deep within and pulling out parts of me that not longer serve me well. Actually, I've been going through a process of this for several years now. One by one different little things uncover themselves and it becomes necessary to ask myself if I'm fulfilled in that behavior or attitude. I shouldn't make it sound like these things uncover themselves because they more or less are brought to light, let me say. And usually through circumstances or others or both. And then even sometimes.....no...I mean, always through repetition. I mean, really, sometimes I ask myself why I keep doing the things I do not want to do.

I have spent many years now in a process of looking within to determine the motive behind certain actions. And yet, once again, I am faced with asking myself "Why do I do the things I do?" I've come to believe there are two huge factors that lie beneath.....fear and love. Fear that if I accept the here and now.....I will miss something more. And if I allow myself to completely embrace people and situations in my life..I will not be good at loving, so to escape that I never completely allow the thin glass between us to fall away. It's a vicious cycle and one that keeps me asking myself "Why".

Experience has taught me that it is spiritually healthy to ask ourselves "Why do we do the things we do?" It's a way of holding ourselves accountable for our own actions. There is great power in being aware of yourself...nothing changes magically because I am but once aware I can look beyond the surface action to see what motivates me. and I don't mean just looking at negative behaviors but also asking the "Why " question when I'm having success in my actions also.

I have had such a restless heart for some time and found it hard to identify its cause. I want to find contentment right where I am at....in those around me...in my friendships...in my work....in my family....I don't want anything more anymore. I want to live in the moment and dance where I am at! I'm going to be asking myself more frequently "Why do I do the things I do?"

SHOULD I?

During my way to somewhere(secret)
These are the conversations between me & him...
who??asks you..my`GUY' lorh...who else...=)

ME:Can i put your picture inside my blog?
HIM:No.(strictly saying)
ME:But, why?
HIM:Because I said no!
ME:But you are my `guy'.The one who has taken me!
HIM:Yes I am.I'm yours & you are mine(our `life blood' word)
ME:So,why must I can't put your picture inside my blog?
HIM:You can put my picture inside your blog,but...(suddenly his phone ringing..)
ME:(after a while, i continue asking) But why???
HIM:You can put my picture but after you said `YES I WOULD'

ME:What?in your dreaming...
HIM:So, would you marry me?
ME:No!
HIM:But,why?
ME:I want to get married with someone who his picture all over spread inside my blog...I want everyone know that I've taken..and you...you...none of your pictures inside my blog...so,about your proposal,...sorry,I can't accept...You are not the one...(not-in-mood)=(
HIM:(Laughing)...
ME:Silent
HIM:(Before he stop his car and went inside the 7Eleven)He said:Whatever it is,always remember this,`I'm yours & you'll always be mine'...`no matter what the people say,I'm always inside there'..and please remember this,you don't have to tell all the people about our love,you & me is more than enough...we're the one who'll get married...not them...(Then he smile)
ME:(no comment)o_O...

To conclude:He always make me fell in love with him over and over again when `his word' out from his mouth...

almost forget,all these are the proofs about our`life blood' words..

OUR` LIFE BLOOD' WORD..

Never realized about this...These are some of our words between me and aznal lutfi a.k.a vhan...all these words seems like to be our life blood...

• i'm yours & you are mine
• fine...
• no matter what....
• i'm always inside there....
• really??
• please.....
• love me yes...
• ask yourself first...
• I love you because of your money
• i want hilux
  
• act as my gf@bf
• would you...
• you're an airlines pilot,that's why i love you..=p
• you're not beautiful as a stewardess,that's why i love you=)
• as you wish...
  
• you first...
• i want money
• aha...`perut besar'
• you're matured enough
• I'm not old,I'm just matured
• come over here
• I'm on my way
• call you back later on...
• good care
  
• LOL
• you gotta be kidding
• I'm not your wife....
• I'm surrender
• I do love you...
• nope...
• stop eating...
• so,...???
• I'm a materialistic
• it's hot
• don't...
• give me your love,then I'll give you mine...
• bye
  

That' s all for today...there's a long way to go.....=)
To conclude:both of us can be considered as `TALKATIVE'
current mood: cupid

NADIA....

I searched among the card displays,
to see if I could find,
A little something that would say
just what was on my mind.

However there was not a one,
that captured it just right,
For no one else can understand
just what I'd like to write.

I even find it difficult
to try to write it down,
For how do I portray to you,
this friend that I have found?

I close my eyes and what I see,
is someone I adore,
A person who is beautiful,
and even so much more.

Mere words cannot describe
the many qualities you show,
The love and caring nature that
you share with those you know.

Your kind and gentle temperament,
your sweet angelic smile,
Your softly spoken sentiments,
that will reach across the miles.

Your smile and laugh that sparkle with
the softness of your sighs,
The way your face lights up a room ...
that twinkle in your eyes.

The loving gestures through the weeks,
that quickly come to mind,
For always you've a gentle word
to calm and soothe I find.

I struggle and I search to try
to find some words anew ...
And yet I cannot capture
all the things that make you... you.

I will therefore, be satisfied
that you must simply know,
Just how I feel about you,
for with words I cannot show.

For Nadia.... She is a new friend in my life and I think that she is so awesome... Words could NEVER describe her! You just have to meet her!
really love u Nadia..