DOWN WITH THE `HOT' GUY?

or these guys....

I've been seeing this trend lately in movies, the male figure is, let's say, not-so-good-looking. Guys like Seth Rogan, Jonah Hill, Jon Favreau, Vince Vaughn, Jason Segal. These men do not have washboard abs. They aren't 10's - per se. And you definitely wouldn't think to see them with girls like Kristen Bell, Jennifer Aniston, Amber Heard, Mila Kunis, Jaime Pressly. (They also all seem to have really curly hair?) So why are they so likeable? Why do they always seem to get the pretty girl? It's because, (and I'm starting to see this in my own life) they are hilarious, genuine, non-bullshitters, that seem to have a heart of gold.

You see the guys like Zac Efron, Brad Pitt, Channing Tatum, (and who is this Taylor Lautner kid?) the pretty boys, the ones with the extremely hot bodies and good looks; they aren't doing it for me anymore. OK, they're attractive. But what the hell... They have no personality, they seem to have this "I'm better than you" attitude, and they have an ego the size of Texas. (I'm strictly talking about on-screen performances and overall perception, I really don't know how these guys are in real life)

So I have this friend. And maybe I just never noticed him much before. But I hung out with him a couple times recently, and although he is no Ashton Kutcher, I find myself extremely attracted to him. Not because of how he looks; but because of who he is. We totally have the same sense of humor (I was literally laughing at everything he said) and he is generally a very sweet guy. Now I had to keep the flirting to a minimum because I was already with someone there, but he texted me after we had left and said it was good to see me again and we should definitely hang out more. So I knew he felt some sort of attraction there too.

Now my dating record is all over the board. I've dated some crazy characters. It's because I have never thought about what other people think, and just gone with how the guy makes me feel. (My friends are always telling me I can get someone better, i.e. someone hotter) That kind of has changed, I'm now dating this guy who is very physically attractive. And I really did like him at first. (I think I was blinded by his attractiveness) Now all of a sudden I'm not feeling the same way about him anymore. And I really can't stop thinking about that friend...

So do looks matter at all? Would you rather have the hot guy, or the not-so-hot guy that you get along with better? And do you think you find someone more attractive after you get to know them and like their personality? I'm really beginning to think so... :)

Happy Holidays to Me?

So I realized recently that the older we get the more the Holidays become about everyone around us and the less they become about us. I'm fairly young, in my early 20's and am already realizing that I will from now on be in such a situation as to give up what I want for the Holidays in order to make sure that everyone around me is happy on theirs. I wish I could do it and still get things my way at least a little bit but there is never enough resources. Either money is tight, time is short or the universe decides against it.

This seems to sound whiney so far and honestly it probably is. I am more than happy to sacrifice most things so that all the other people in mine and my boyfriends lives get a special Holiday Season. However, I do wish that I could feel at least a little bit special. Like someone would go out of their way to try and make mine special. It doesn't normally happen though. Hard as some people might want to it just never seems to happen.

A few days ago I was talking to several older women, all mothers and wives. They were talking about the "family gift". That one thing the whole family agrees they can share and how that was usually a gift fo the husbands and kids, how they never really got much out of it. On top of that it also seemed like they were the ones to run around most to put everything together, and then were the most exhausted and the least noticed on the Holiday itself. Maybe I'm just starting to figure out how my mother must have felt all those years, hard as I tried on the Holidays, because to be honest Santa Clause just took a great deal of attention!

I'm not a mother yet. I am not a wife yet. I have not felt the true exhaustion of the preparations. I am simply starting to understand. So to all the mothers that put in all that work THANK YOU! To all those parents and spouses who give up their Holiday cheer to make everyone else happy THANK YOU! To everyone who knows what it's like to feel a little bit left out when everyone else is celebrating on the day you've prepared THANK YOU! You make the Holidays worth having, and you make the smiles possible and you deserve the biggest and best THANKS!

Happy Holidays and may everyone get to feel special!

I LOST A FRIEND,BUT....

I lost my bestie...
But I got a new one...
D-wan is my new bestie...
I love him...aha
and I'll always do...
I <3 him because....

• I think he's a guy not a boy
• He always act like a `nanny' but with a reason
  
• He'll not keep his mouth shut if i did something wrong(he always giving advise)
• He's my senior
• That mean he's older than me
• He always there to remind me about `solat'
• I like the way he text me
• the way he respect me during our conversation
• He's the guy who woke up late at night by playing his guitar and sangs a song to me
• And I admit `I love that'(smiling)
• I love the way he makes me missing him
• There's a lot of reasons why I love him
• I just can't put into words...
• It's seems like word doesn't enough to describe how much I love him

For D-wan,
Thanks for being my bestie!!
Love you!!
and I'll always do...

ATTENTION!!

FROM NOW ON

• I'M SINGLE...
• BUT NOT AVAILABLE...
• LOVE MY FRIENDS
• HATE SOME OF THEM
• LOVE MY FAMILY
• AND WILL ALWAYS DO
• DOES NOT NEED A BOYFRIEND
  
• BUT NEED A HUSBAND(NOT A GUY BUT A `HUSBAND')not now
• THERE'S UPS AND DOWN IN LIFE
• BEFORE YOU LOVE SOMEONE,PLEASE LOVE YOURSELF FIRST
• BEFORE YOU HATE SOMEONE,PLEASE HATE YOURSELF FIRST
• REMEMBER ONE THING,I'M NOT PERFECT AND THE SAME THING GOES TO YOU
• YOU CAN HURT ME
• IT'S UP TO YOU
• I RATHER BE THE SAD ONE..
• AND I WILL ALWAYS DO...
• IF YOU WANT TO GIVE ME AN ADVISE OR ACT LIKE A `NANNY'
• PLEASE DO SO
• BUT
• IN THE RIGHT WAY!!
• I HATE PEOPLE WHO HATE ME
• I LOVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME

FAKE PEOPLE

All the time

I look in your eyes

But what I see

And what you say to me

Are two totally different things

You pretend you put on a facade

I only wish you knew that I'm not

The only one who sees it as odd

Fake people

The things they do are oh so evil

Because of their own insecurities

They try to pass on to you their idiosyncrasies

Thinking they are your friends you let them into your lives

But then they turn around and about you tell nothing but lies

Jealousy is such an ugly thing

Almost as ugly as hypocrisy

Fake people

The things they do are oh so evil

Fake people

Fake people

So now I must ask who are your friends

Are they really what they seem to be

Or are they just trying to hide from you their envy

Do your friends really have your back

Or is it that that's where by them you've been stabbed

I once had a friend

One I thought would be there for me till the end

Then one day my happiness ended and theirs began

And when I needed someone to lean on

Behind me did no one stand

Fake people

The things they do are oh so evil

Because of their own insecurities

They try to pass on to you their idiosyncrasies

Thinking they are your friends you let them into your lives

But then they turn around and about you tell nothing but lies

Jealousy is such an ugly thing

Almost as ugly as hypocrisy

Fake people

The things they do are oh so evil

Fake people

Fake people

Be careful who you let know your business

Cause in the end

Rumors about you they could be spreadin'

Don't put your trust in people who don't trust you

There's no telling what they're liable to say or do

Grow smarter with each experience

And you'll see true friends

Are the friends who are their with and for you till the end

Fake people

The things they do are oh so evil

Because of their own insecurities

They try to pass on to you their idiosyncrasies

Thinking they are your friends you let them into your lives

But then they turn around and about you tell nothing but lies

Jealousy is such an ugly thing

Almost as ugly as hypocrisy

Fake people

The things they do are oh so evil

Fake people

Fake people

EVERYTHING

Every new beginning,
comes from some beginnings end.

Every time you kill me,
I am born again.

Every time you close that door,
Another door is opened.

And every time you say goodbye,
a different word is spoken.

Every time you look at me
my back is facing you,

And every time you ask to see me
I'll have something else to do.

Every time I join your game,
You're not playing fair,

And every time I really love you,
I pretend that I don't care.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY edrean!!!

Edrean!
It’s your birthday time again;
It’s true; there’s no denying,
Another year has come and gone;
You know that I’m not lying. So for you, the birthday person,
Here’s what I want to say:
I hope this birthday’s the best one yet,
In every delightful way. So happy birthday to you.
Have lots of birthday fun!
May your birthday wishes all come true,
Even if you have a ton.
LOTSALUV,
asny
missin u!
=(