Monday, July 27, 2009


Ha ha! The funny thing is, he said "You're probably going to blog about this, aren't you?" Anyway.

Before he left for Bangkok for his work, we were saying our goodbyes and I love yous.

Here's how it went:
I love you
Him: I love you too.
Me: Really? You really love me?
Yes, I really do love you, with all my heart.
Me: Why?

Then it became silent. He stuttered a bit.

Him: I love you because, ..., uh, UGH! Why do you have to put me on the spot like that?!?

Should I be upset that he can't tell me why he loves me? He didn't say anything for a long while. Approximately like 30 minutes. After that while, he hugged me. And we started talking again.

Him: Why are you so quiet?
Me: Me? You're the one that's been quiet! Ever since I asked you that question.
Him: I just don't want to sound like a idiot when I answer you.
Me: How are you going to sound like an idiot answering a question like that?

I felt like I was being sorta mean, but I was just messing with him because there shouldn't be a reason why he should stall on a question like THAT. Anyways, he attempted to answer but failed!

Him: I love you because you love me
Me: Ew! So you're saying that everyone that is in love with you, you have to love them back?
Him: No no! See, you're probably going to blog about this aren't you? Just because I can't answer your question
Me: Well it's a simple question! Why are you with me? There should be a reason you love me. You say "I love you" with no reason behind it?
Him: Can you tell me reasons why you love me then?
Me: I can tell you MANY reasons why I love you. And I wouldn't have to wait 30 minutes and stall just to answer the question.

Lol. Yeah, this conversation didn't really end the way I wanted it to. He told me little tiny things why he loves me. Like "Because I deal with his nerdiness" or some little things I do.

What do you think? Should I be upset that he couldn't answer the question like I expected him to? I was thinking that maybe he doesn't really know what LOVE really IS. We've been together for almost 2 years now. And I love him more than he will ever know. But I want the feeling to be mutual. Not just me loving him with all that I am, but him doing the same for me. At times I feel like maybe he likes the company/hugs/. But he doesn't really know the true meaning for love.

Sunday, July 19, 2009


A simple word isn't it?
It's uttered every day to almost every person imaginable.
Who are your friends?
I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to.
Now I realize that friends aren't that.
They are the people that touch your heart.
You could spend hours with them by doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life,just because it was with them.
They are the people you can share your secret with,cry with,laugh with,and just have fun with.
They don't judge you and make you change.
They accept you exactly as what you are.
They look at you and always see a great person inside you.
The one that they love spending time with.
You all share something in common and are tied together by memories,tears,laughs and smiles.
You are tied together by love for the other.
Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world.
I find my time with my friends were the greatest and the best time i ever had.
And it will always be the same.
My friends are my heart,my soul,my fun,my laughters,tears,loves and my life...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

L.O.V.E to be Loved

HEY ITS ME AZNAL@Vhan: " well i love Asny more than anything i've ever loved anything before...shes so beautiful and she knows exactly how to treat do anything for her and nothing will ever stop me from giving her one last i love u before she goes to bed...i love my shenny and i will kill anyone who tries to take her so yeah =] *mwah* i love u Asny.I'm yours u'll always be mine

This is hacked by Edy(not the boyfriend lol), this girl is like amazing :D. She randomly added me on myspace one day and i decided to talk to her :P. We pc4pc each other and thats how we really started talking xP. Shes like the coolest weirdo ever! Our conversations are really strange most of the time and that makes her fun to talk to :D. And no matter what she says about her looks i think shes very gorgeous :). It would be really cool if i could chill with her in person im sure we would have a blast :). So basically im saying that Asny is the shit and anybody that knows to her is lucky to know her :D

Asny! You're Fucking Awesome! I absolutly love our random conversations they make me nearly die of laughter. You knoww how to cheer me up when i need it. You're like my bestfriend only in a different state. So my long distance bestfriend I guess is what i'm getting at? ANYWAAYS If I had to pick someone to go kill mega dead zombies with knives i'd pick T-pain J/K It would totally be you! If i'd never met you i think i'd be an emo kid all the time no one has a sense of humor anymore cept you! And i think you're the cutest thing to walk the earth :D ! we're both awesome xD But I'ma Quit Rambling On About How Ah-mazinn You Are! I Loverz You Asny! -Edrean Abdullah

Peanut is telling the story of a pretty girl her name is Asny Saad. we sorta started talking but its like we knew each other forever shes like adorable and if you dont think so well ima jizz in you left nostral.any ways id get to know her b/c she pretty dam awsome id kick all my friends in the nuts juss to see her in my life,who ever lives close by her is pretty dam lucky cuz Asny is beautiful so you shud get to know her like now ,right now ,or eles ill jizz in your right nostral too (:Shafinas known as Peanut

this is my bestiee..
Asny my bestie... no one elses only mines =)i love Asny.. shes my bestfriend ever and we have been threw a lot but we got threw it. our friendship is unstoppable![[= no one & not anyone can ruin our relationship even the one who has taken her (Vhan)...=p we met a while ago and when i first did, i knew she would be in my life forever and ever.I luv u and i'll always do.
Time: 2030
Place:Capt.Vhan's house

heyy , well i am Adeeba Aziz(Deeb) , and thiss amazing chick is Asny. we met a while ago , i dont really remember how lol , but i will never regret it. we barely talkedd , untill a little bit ago wehn we hadda little situation , but that brought us closerr , she tought me a lott , and i am really proud of how we turned out. any guy would be lucky to have her , but she is takenn lol and if he hurts her , im gonna have to kick somee booty hehe. she is a great friendd , and overall amazing , so if you dont know her then you are definatlyy missing outt on one greatt girl. -Deeb

talkin bout Asny!

Hi, My name is Asny.
I blow out my candles on November 7th.
I’m very hard to handle. I will frustrate you to the max.
I don’t take credit for anything because I don’t think I deserve anything I have.
I let people hurt me, and bring me down, especially the ones i love.
I cry, and i cry, and i cry. It’s what i’m best at.
I like to sit in the corner of the room and think with my knees to my chest.
I will always be there for anyone who needs me or is ever sad, it doesn’t matter how horrible you were to me in the past, i would rather be the sad one.
I am taken by Aznal Lutfi. <3. I Love him. I Have that one special person that makes me feel like everythings okay. And everytime I hear his voice I feel so loved and happy, but so afraid and scared to lose it all. My best friends are Uesof; He’s always been there for me to make me smile, and
Lyna(da best); Who helps me stand,Luv u tayunk!
Edrean Abdulllah; No matter what he’s been there to save me, and
Ady; He’s too funny NOT to be my friend, and he always cheers me up when I’m in a bad mood.
Yanu;the one that always smile and always looks great in 'selendang'..
Deeba & Peanut;rules my world.thanks for tke cre my captain=).
Edy;always fill out my space wif laughter..Well, i guess that’s it. I Have sooo manyy things in my life that you would never expect, soo get to know me. I’m always opened for chatting.

Monday, July 13, 2009

L.O.V.E again

I wrote this for someone that means the world to me.It tells everything or anything that love really means to me.It is actually symbolizes my love for someone that has beed there for me through the bad and even the worst time for me.
L, is for Laughter I give to you every day
knowing you will never go away
O, is for the Options we'll have when we are together
knowing our love couldn't get any better
V, is for the Vision I have of you
Knowing I'll never find anyone quit like you
E, is for Everything that is true I've ever said
especially when I said"I'm yours &U'll always be mine and we will be together till we're dead"

Saturday, July 11, 2009


Some days pass...
And I think about you,
Wondering if even sometimes you think of me too?

Never thought I'd be writting a poem again; For you
Just thought I was finally through.

But now I don't think I ever was,
I think, just mostly hopeing I could find another to trust.

But now I know It's *IMPOSSIBLE* too feel that compete again,
So I hope I can at least keep you as a friend?

Like I always told you...
No matter what happens in life, I'll always love you.
No ones perfect!!

Friday, July 10, 2009


When I was a child, I believed in fairy tales. I truly believed, one day, a prince would come along and rescue me.

Okay, even then I knew he wouldn't be an actual prince. But I still had an image in my mind. He would be strong. Intelligent. And incredibly handsome.

He would be the type of man who could slay dragons. When he put his arms around me, I'd feel safe. I'd feel protected.

I searched. Several times, I thought I'd found him but it was never quite...right. I never felt that sense of security that I'd always dreamed of. I began to give up hope. Fairy tales weren't reality. It was time to wake up and realize real men weren't heroes.

Then I met him.

True love is partly how you feel about the other person and partly how that other person makes you feel. When I'm with him, I feel like that beautiful princess. I feel loved, cherished. I feel like we can get through long as we have each other.

I wish, for just five minutes, he could see himself as I see him. He'd see that he's the most incredibly intelligent, handsome, charismatic man I've ever met. If he could see himself through my eyes...he'd realize what a hero he truly is.

He recently joked that I should write him into one of my DIARY. He didn't realize there's a whole lot of him in every hero I write about. So why is it so hard to write how I feel about him?


Ours wasn't a conventional romance. There were plenty of bumps in the road...and still are. Yet I never imagined I could love someone so deeply for so long. It seems my love grows deeper with each passing day.

I love the way he says 'I love you' at random moments.

I love the way he makes even the most mundane things fun.

I love the fact that everyone who meets him instantly likes him.

I love the way our gazes always seem to find each other, even when we're surrounded by chaos. I love the LOVE I see in his eyes when he looks at me...and knowing that love is reflected in my own.

I love the way his arms feel around me. The way he smells. The way his hand fits around mine.

I love so many other things I can't write here...because they're private...and because it's more information than any of you want to know anyway!

Most of all, I just wanted to say I love him. And to figure out why this blog was the most difficult of anything I've ever written.

Maybe some things just can never be put into words?

.::.MY RULES.::.

Current mood: amused

Okay I'm saying these rules now, luckily no one has broke any of them :)

1.) I can't tell you how many people stress about this but please type where.. I can read and understand it!

Good Example: "Hey Asny, how was that movie you went to last night?"

Bad Example: "hey Asny wuts ^? howz ru 2dayz? did u lik ur movie last nite?

Seriously,..Who wants to spend their time deciphering that message?

2.) If we're having a conversation and I disappear for a couple days then eventually pop up and answer, well that's normal and there's nothing I can do about it. So deal with it! (Sorry)

3.) Obviously I am NOT going to be on everyday 24/7 so be patient and I will get to you.

4.) Please do NOT insult/harass any of the people on my friends list/people roleplaying with me, I don't want to get chewed out because you have problems.

5.) My character or any other of them will NOT be dying so don't even try it, I'll tell you to bugger off, delete the message and block you. If Rape comes up it's not a big problem but If I've never talked to you and your character just walks up and starts doing shit, I'll block you.

6.) I'm not really fond of doing a private roleplaying scenerio's. On blogs? Sure. Comments? No problem. Messages? If only necassary.

7.) Please don't add me then like drop you're account later, at least have enought decency to take me of your 'dead' account's buddy list.

8.) If I make a mistake instead of leaving me a million comments bitching me out please be kind enough to send me private message and I'll try and correct it.

9.) We all have our boundaries and hopefully you'll learn them fast enough because I tend to have a quick and nasty angry side,

10.) I will not tolerate you pushing me into a relationship, I will go at my own pace and make a move when I feel the time is right.

11.) If I'm not in the mood to talk, I'll tell you and I hope you will listen and not push it. PLEASE DONT. Pushing me will result in blocking. I'm not trying to be mean, just honest.

12.) Most likely I will NOT whore you or comment more than on of you're pics,..unless I really like you.

That's all...For now


Current mood: calm

Full name:
Hair, color and style:
Do you Drink and/or smoke:
Where do you personally like to go on dates:
Who are your three favorite bands:
How would you rate your kiss:
Are you a virgin:
Do you like the rain:
If so...would you play in it with me:
Do you play any sports (if so what?:
Would you ever cheat on me:
Would you ever lie to me:
What if it was a good cause:
Do you consider yourself to be: cute, fine, ugly, average, sexy, or no comment:


Go out with me:
Give me your number:
Watch a movie with me:
Drive me somewhere private:
Be my bf/gf:
Take me home to meet your family:
Let me sleep in your bed if I didn't have one:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Hold my hand:
Keep in touch:
Would you give me a lap dance:
Would you like for me to give you a lap dance:
Would you call me right after we saw each other:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Tell me a secret and trust me with it:
Marry me:
Would you sneak out with me late at night:
How often would you just sit at home with me:
Would you ever stay up all night just to watch me sleep:

Think I'm cute:
Want to kiss me:
Want to date me:
Want to hurt me:
Want to marry me:
Like me:
Hate me:

Interesting to talk to:

Thought about me:
Thought there might be an "US":
Found yourself wanting to kiss me:
Wished I were there:
Wanted to ask me out:

I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I was hospitalized:
I got in a fight and you were there:

I got dumped:

I started crying:
If we got to the point in the relationship where I told you I loved you, what would you say: